A Quiet Question That Changed My Life

For a long time, I looked like I had it all together.

I was running a business, raising my child as a single mum, navigating a breakup, dealing with stalking and harassment, and even facing a DUI. And somehow, I still managed to keep the mask on — the smile, the social charm, the party girl energy. I was everybody’s best friend. The one who always said “I’m fine.”

But I wasn’t fine.

Inside, I was slowly dying.

The truth is, I had been trying to control my drinking for years. I’d make rules, break them, try again. The cycle repeated over and over, and with each round, I lost a little more of myself. I never slept through the night. I lived with this creeping anxiety that wouldn’t go away. My relationships were breaking down. My body felt heavy, bloated, exhausted — I was always 20 pounds over where I felt healthy. But worse than anything was the self-hate that lived in me. The shame. The lies I told to hide how much I was really drinking.

I felt completely hopeless. Out of control.
And I couldn’t keep pretending.

Eventually, I hit rock bottom. That moment no one wants but sometimes desperately needs. That’s when everything changed — not because I magically found strength, but because I was finally honest enough to say: I can’t live like this anymore.

If you’re reading this and wondering, Am I drinking too much?
Here’s what I want you to know: you don’t have to wait to hit the same bottom I did. You can choose something different today. Right now.

Looking back, there were so many signs I ignored — here are 7 subtle red flags that alcohol had too much control:

• I drank more often and more heavily than I meant to
• I broke my own rules about “only on weekends” or “just one”
• I used alcohol to cope with stress, loneliness, fear, or even boredom
• I woke up with guilt and anxiety almost every day
• I lied about how much I drank, even to myself
• I hated the woman I saw in the mirror — tired, disconnected, lost
• And I couldn’t imagine getting through a week without wine

If any of this sounds like you, you don’t need to feel ashamed. You need to feel empowered — because the moment you start asking the question, “Is this too much?” — is the moment everything can begin to shift.

That’s why I wrote The First 30 Days — a guide I wish I’d had when I was just beginning. It’s not about being perfect. It’s about getting real. It’s a gentle, step-by-step path to help you take a break from alcohol, reconnect with your truth, and start healing emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

I know how dark it can feel when you’re stuck in it.
But I also know the light that’s waiting for you on the other side.

👉 Get your copy of The First 30 Days here

You don’t have to keep pretending.
You don’t have to keep drinking.
You just have to take the next brave step — and I’ll walk beside you.